Blast from the Past: What Life Was Like From June 4th to June 17th 2003

[Two years later...where will I be two years from now?]

Today I discovered my first blog, plexiglass ego [the name is still really cool - admit it!] Anywho its really funny and kind of depressing and strange to go back in time and read the oh so pressing issues of the day. I mean - I was in high school, had my first real crush who liked me back, worried about ISUs, living at home with my parents, had my best friends close by - just found out that one was gay - would find out that two others were just after my last post.

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Tuesday, June 17, 2003
Hehe, Zoro likes me even more after friday...could that mean that he finds me attractive?! :D Whoo whooposted by Holly at 7:43 PM
Saturday, June 14, 2003
Well, I finally met the infamous Zoro...Christian Rock n bowl is great. Me, Steve, Matt and Christine got there right at eight when the whole place was pretty well empty. And yes before I met Zoro, I had to go to the mall, buy a new shirt and get my eyebrows waxed lol. Typical me. Anyways so we get there and Steve already knows the guy behind the counter, who we later learn is the DJ. This guy is really nice and his name is Dave and he's cool and whatever. (Later, I REALLY get the impression he has a crush on me, I wonder how old he thought I was!) So yeah we are all just sorta stupid bowling for about a half an hour because Zoro and Brit and Kate didnt show...yet. SO we actually start playing a real game and then they show up...I was sorta nervous at first because they were standing at the doors and Brit was signaling to me and I was like "must bowl, be with you in a minute!"...sad really. SO I get there and I greet everyone and I shake Zoro's hand which is sort of weird especially because we both know that we like each other. And the rest of the night is sorta okay....Zoro is very shy and doesnt talk much and I had to keep trying to get him to talk to me, I got the "elevator" look up and down from this guy and the DJ asked for a hug and called me "sweetie". Strange, so basically there was three guys there that somewhat liked me or something...not bad for a friday night. I'm not sure exactly what I think of Zoro, it still feels like I've met him before, and he is sorta out of it. I only wonder know what he thinks of me.posted by Holly at 9:58 AM
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How times have changed. I know have the one I love and loves me back that shall remain nameless, one of the friends that I was to find out was gay is now infact engaged [still gay]. I live on my own in a town I didn't even hear of back then. Friends are similar, gained and lost a few... how strange that two years can make such an enormous difference. This was about a month before my trip to Calgary. This was before my car accident. This was before I decided not to go to Ryerson and pursue Wilfrid Laurier. This was before my grandfather had died. How strange.

Wouldn't it be cool if I could leave a comment to my self on that old blog and tell myself two years ago what to do? What advice would I give?

I would tell myself that 1. DONT LIKE ZORO! Nice guy and all but that quietness at the bowling alley was him all the time. You WILL find him boring before the summer is over. He will forget about you when he leaves the country and will never really talk to you again. You will break the garage door because of this. 2. the next guy...S_ _ N is just as bad! DONT DO IT! YOU DONT NEED MALE COMPANIONSHIP! YOUR PRETTY! THEY ARE STUPID! Only go after guys that you don't have to go after. If you become effortless friends then there might be something there! LOOK TO SEPTEMBER!!! You will meet someone who will continue to be a major part of your life and still is as of August 6th 2005! 3. You did not turn Aaron, Joel or Ryan gay. Their fathers did it. 4. Take art in grade 12...don't take first period spare. 5. Music is a very hard class, dont let it hurt you. 6. You don't need to look like Vanessa Carleton for a few reasons: she will not be famous in a year, you don't need to be anyone but you and Zoro is not important anyways.

There, I'm sure the me two years ago would tell me now to bugger off but it tis all true. Oh well. No point in lying to the past. Oh and I never did get that job...because I was only 15. I'm so glad to not be 15 anymore, I don't think its easier because it is not - but I'm happier. So long 15, hello a brave new world. What advice will I want to give myself now, two years from now? I'm almost scared to ask. I like my mistakes as I'm sure I liked them then.

Mistakes are important, if I never made them I would never smarten up.